yesterday my baby today my boy

I watched today as you grew up a little more. I watched you follow directions as your grandad showed you how.

I watched you use your own problem solving skills as you ran to the house and grabbed a sandwich bag to transport water when the hose didn't work.

I watched as you gently placed each plant in their designated hole.

I watched as you carefully packed the dirt around each stem.

I saw a gleam of pride in your eyes as you looked down the fresh row of planted vegetables.

I saw your little tounge stick out the side of your mouth as you learned to drive the tractor by yourself.

I watched you brush the dirt off your little hands and knees as you finished your job.

Today I watched as you went from my baby to my little boy in front of my eyes.

Today I saw some of the man you will become shine through the exterior of the little boy I wish you'd stay.

Today a tear slid down my cheek as you were tucked into bed.

You woke up my baby, but you went to sleep my little boy.

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