Life of a boy mom

I watched today as you grew up a little more. I watched you follow directions as your grandad showed you how.  I watched you use your own problem solving skills as you ran to the house and grabbed a sandwich bag to transport water when the hose didn't work.  I watched as you gently placed each plant in their designated hole. I watched as you carefully packed the dirt around each stem.  I saw a gleam of pride in your eyes as you looked down the fresh row of planted vegetables.  I saw your little tounge stick out the side of your mouth as you learned to drive the tractor by yourself.  I watched you brush the dirt off your little hands and knees as you finished your job.  Today I watched as you went from my baby to my little boy in front of my eyes.  Today I saw some of the man you will become shine through the exterior of the little boy I wish you'd stay.  Today a tear slid down my cheek as you were tucked into bed.  You woke up my ...

If I only had you for one more day...  I'd be soaking up every single moment.  Memorizing every feature.  Basking in every smile. Holding every giggle in my heart. I wouldn't be concerned with the mess you made. We'd clean it up together. And I'd smile at you and giggle as you stuck your tounge out when you swept. I'd play silly games and do silly dances and talk about the ways I love you.  I'd spend each moment I could cuddling you and pulling you closer and closer missing each of your fingers and you nose. These are things we do often but not often enough.  Hearing a doctor say "concern for malignancy" scared me. I wanted to drop to the floor and cry. But mostly... I wanted to go home and do those things.  We get to go home and have those days again. And I'm so grateful. I won't take them for granted any more.